The first time I tried the Prelude to Suite No.1, I hadn’t officially started learning it yet – I was just playing around. I flipped to the front of the book and had a go.
The first 40 bars or so, played very slowly, were okay, sounded amazingly error-free even, considering I was sight-reading. I thought to myself: I can do this.
Once it had been ‘assigned’, I came back to it and had a disastrous half an hour where I couldn’t get through the first two lines to save my life and my bow sounded like someone was desperately hanging onto it at the other end, preventing me drawing it across the strings at any kind of useful speed. I had myself convinced I couldn’t ever play this thing, that first time was a fluke, and promptly posted awhile back about
being terrified of it.
A few days passed, and I came back to it. Gingerly.
I employed my favourite trick with music I have convinced myself is too hard to play – I approach it sideways. Like I’m not quite looking straight at it. ‘I’ll just play the first couple bars, really painfully slowly, and then I’ll stop’. Which of course I never do, but by sneaking up on the thing, I don’t let all that panic get in the way. Before I know it, I’ve played through the first page and have started working on a tricky fingering over and over… but that’s okay. That’s stuff I can do.
It’s fear I’m not so good with.